Friday, May 6, 2011

HAPPY BIRTHMOTHERS DAY!!!!


Marie Osmond does the best job showing the emotion that this subject deserves.

Mothers Day

As my first official Mothers Day is creeping closer, I can't help but look back on all that has happened. A year ago I sat in the bathroom, with the door locked, crying my eyes out. This year I laugh with my son as he plays in the house and says DADDA and glagaala sounds.

To all the mothers in the world, including Birth Mothers. HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!


Mothers Day always makes me think of one thing. "From Gods Arms, To My Arms, To Yours" Michael McLean wrote music about all sides of adoption. And since last year I was considering placing my baby for adoption it seems only right to reflect and remember.




Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Let your light so shine...

When I was 16 I was very active in my church. I went to the LDS church in Southern Alberta. My mom was the Laurels leader, which was my class in Young Womens. Every week, with every lesson she wanted to give us something inspiring to take home and help us remember the point to the lesson. Now at the time we both were in love with the movie "Coach Carter." The inspiration to be the best that you can was very touching to us both. The next lesson that we were scheduled to have was called "Letting your light shine..."

In the movie, near the end when Coach Carter comes to clean out his office after the school said that basketball was more important then good grades, there is a part that makes me cry. Timo Cruz was a troubled player. He lived a harsh life and everyday Coach Carter asked him "What are you afraid of boy?" The entire movie he pushes Coach Carter away and finally at the end, he knows what he is afraid of.

He quotes someone very special. Someone who suffered for years in prison. Nelson Mandela.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about
shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."



This quote truly has touched my life, and it meant a great deal when my mother
handed the quote out in class. Reminding all the 16 and 17 year olds to not be afraid of who we truly are. Let your true self shine and no matter what others say, it will be the best thing. We need not fear others and what they say, for if we stand up for what we believe and think and who we are, then there would be no problem that we couldn't handle.

As a woman in 2011, it is truly hard to be true to yourself with all the pressure that there is. Makeup, working out, education, motherhood, friends, social activities, cooking... Everyday you are told that a real woman is this or that. How many of these woman are truly happy in their lives?

I encourage everyone, and especially all the young woman, to be true to the real you. Stand up for who you are. Don't let someone walk over your beliefs and tell you what to do. If you don't want to do something then don't. It is as simple as that. Just say NO!

Remember that out there is someone who will always appreciate the real you. They won't hate you for your mistakes, they will love you in spite of them.

ROYAL WEDDING WEEK!!!

I can't help but feel excited about Prince William and Kate Middleton getting married this week. I have set the PVR and am counting down to the wedding of the decade. I have watched the wedding of Charles to Diana Spencer many times and I can't help but hope that the royal family has learned some things since Diana.

We all have seen pictures of the famous Royal Wedding of Charles Prince of Wales to Lady Diana Spencer. Her dress with its incredibly long train and her glittering family Spencer tiara. Her youth is very clear as she was not yet the style icon she later on became.



I hope that the press and the country doesn't continue to link the similarities of Kate to Diana. They are so different from each other. Of course if you look at the pictures you can see some clothing items are very similar but the personalities of the two women are so different. Diana seemed to be drowning when she married Charles. She was not prepared for the life she would have to lead and she was not the typical woman that royalty wanted. She wasn't going to sit aside and let tradition dictate to her what she was allowed to do. She was open about her feelings and that she was going to do what she wanted to do. She broke years of tradition and fought for what she believed things should be. She had been raised in the Aristocratic world and in my opinion, was not a fan of tradition. She was screaming for a modern life, where she was allowed to do what she wanted, raise her children how she saw fit. She wanted a husband who loved her and wanted to give her all the happiness she deserved. Yet what she got was a man who only married her to get married and satisfy his family.

I cant even help but notice that the love William and Kate have is real. It is passionate and simple. Kate knows that she will have a big role and she is preparing to do so. She has never shown immaturity like Diana did at times. But then again she does have 10 years more experience then Diana did.




I wish them all the luck in the world.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

FIREWORK...!!!!

I truly feel that this song is about everyone. We all have something to offer and we all need to let it shine. This year I make this song my theme.


Firework lyrics
Songwriters: Dean, Esther; Eriksen, Mikkel; Hermansen, Tor Erik; Perry, Katy; Wilhelm, Sandy Julien;

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/katy-perry-lyrics/firework-lyrics.html ]
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Birth Mothers Appreciation

As I was part of a birth mothers class, I know just how important the relationships that you make with those other girls truly are. It gives you the reassurance that you are not the only one who makes mistakes and that you are not in this alone. My pregnancy was incredibly difficult and if it wasn't for my mother, Frankie, and the class, I believe I would have really lost it.

I ran across a blog called Birth Mother Baskets the other day and it truly touched me. The appreciation and care that they are showing these girls is so deep and sincere. I wish it was available in Canada.

So since I was once in the BM shoes, I know just how hard it is. The emotional stress that you go through. Even though we kept Michael in the end, the stress of that choice was just as difficult. I had to hurt people who were so excited, their entire family was waiting for our son, yet we couldn't let him go. My family was very upset about it as well as they all felt like the adoptive family had lost a child.

I came up with an idea. An idea that I find perfect since it will not only be for the girls who place their children, but will be there for all the girls no matter what they do, except abortion. I contacted the other girls from my class, Dallas and Megan, and they have both agreed to help me out and they both seemed super excited. My family is going to be joining as well, as part of my family charity project. Project: Angels Keep.

What we will be doing it putting together things that will help with the adjustment process. We are gathering personal testimonials from girls who have placed for adoption, chosen single parenting, or they are raising the baby with the father. We will collect quotes, songs, books, journals, products for pampering, gift certificates, and for the mothers that are keeping we will give them gift certificates for places like Wal- Mart and Superstore and baby clothing stores to help with the cost of raising and feeding a child. Every basket will be filled with love and with things from people who have experienced these things before. We might even go in and talk to the girls and share our stories with them.

The project is called Birth Mothers Appreciation. Since every girl in the class will be giving birth, I consider them all Birth Mothers. No matter what, even if they keep or place for adoption.

If you wish to share your story, or you have quotes or songs that will be appropriate please contact the group at

BirthMotherAppreciation@groups.facebook.com




ONE COUPLE, ONE ANGEL, ONE HEART

A couple is sealed at the alter, for time and eternity
With a love that will not falter.

A couple begins their journey through life,
To start a family becomes their great strife.

A child is conceived within the womb,
A child passes on only to soon.

A couple continues to shed tear after tear, for conceiving,
Another child takes year after year.

A couple then journeys down another path,
Perhaps not flesh nor of bone but
In the end, still their own.

An angel appears from out of the blue,
With something precious and dear
That nobody knew.

A couple meets the angel feeling extremely grateful,
For an angel’s prayers are answered because
She was faithful.

One heart binds them both after meeting a short while,
A couple, an angel, a love for one child.

From God’s arms, to yours, to mine it will be.
An angel is blessed for God’s eyes will see.

One couple, one angel joined at the heart,
A child doubly loved and blessed from the start.

An angel who set forth the last puzzle piece,
For a couple, a child, a love that will never cease.





To learn more about Birth Mother Baskets please copy and paste the link.

http://birthmotherbaskets.blogspot.com/